Sunday, November 7, 2010

The Good Samaritan

Another weekend of fun! I'm so strapped for cash but I have the best friends out there. One such friend offered to lend me money, for food, which i flat out refused. I'd like to keep him as a friend, and I firmly believe that lending money between friends is the best way to lose them. I did suggest that if he wanted to take me out to eat I'd do that. Since we both have to eat and all, and of course that is exactly what happened on Friday night. Only he didn't stop there. Last night he brought over two bottles of wine and two pizzas much larger than the three of us would need to eat and movies, with the excuse of 'hanging out'. Now we've got lunches all week in left overs.
I guess real friends find a way to help you even if you don't ask for it, and don't act like you need it.

thanks to the other friends that asked me out to Brat Pack Radio, and Yesterdays last night. Would have loved to have joined you too, but alas no money.

For those of you that follow me on facebook and expected this to be all about the big "blow up" on the 5th of November, well, I'm sorry to disappoint you. But actually I'm relieved that he's gone since he can't give me what I need from our relationship. I'm sad that he's unable to see that he has done this by his choices to make me more than a friend, and then marry her anyway without really thinking things through, and spending time with me to see. I'm also sorry that the friendship has to be on hold until I can 'be at peace' with us, as he says he is.

I'm SO NOT at peace with 'us'. I can't just turn it off or bury it like he can, and has, as a survival technique to be married to one woman while in love with another. Can you even BE in love with two people at the same time? I mean THAT in love? He says he is. I don't buy it.

Any comments out there?
I know I could use some.

And don't worry. I'm fine. Had a great time so far this weekend. Looking forward to writing today. . . will be interesting to see if I can do it without him. I know I can, it just will be strange when I'm blocked not to be able to run it by him.

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