Are you still waiting, or are you running to catch?

I'm here in Chicago for sales school, writing to you, while having my breakfast in bed, and I've got a ton of memorization to get perfect before my first presentation to my teacher tomorrow morning.  Then I have to give my final presentation to the big wigs upstairs on Wednesday, followed by a final and graduation on Thursday.  Am I nervous?  Yes.  Am I worried that I won't be word perfect?  Yes.  Will I be ready by tomorrow?  Yes...I'm studying and role playing all day and into the evening...whatever it takes to get it polished.  My roommate and I both have teams from our individual classes, that spend more time socializing than learning, and we are committed.  So we are going to help each other out.  We're suppose to stick with our teams, but my team has disappeared.  And I have to look out for my best interests too...hopefully I'll run into one of them later and can join them for a round of role-playing, but I can't rely on them, unfortunately.
I'm trying to keep my attitude positive, but of course, doubt is creeping in.

Will I be able to succeed at this?  I hope so, I don't know for sure, but I hope so.  I do know that even if I can't do this the way that I want I won't consider it a failure.  I've met too many good people I want to stay in touch with, and I've learned too much about myself during this time to consider it a failure.  I am finding a lot of personal growth in this school,  philosophy and that has been very valuable to me both in my career and personal life.

I'm finding that I'm looking at personal situations quite differently, and while my eyes are open now, the good news is so is my heart.  I'm trying so hard to look at my life as if it is just beginning and that that is a good thing.  That if I can just hold on to my dreams, perhaps they are waiting for me, right around the corner, and all I have to do is go for it!  So instead of thinking on the negative, that I'm still waiting for my life to begin....I'll twist that, into I'm going to catch the life that is waiting around the corner for me!

Cheers.